My Love Baby♥

Well..people that know me know that i dont usually use "I" in the post..i dont like talking about myself..is boring~ But this time different, since i got my new darling, hav to let it shown to people~~



Haha~ briefly explain~ her name Faith, France brand if no wrong, but made in indonesia (cost less :P), made of one piece of rosewood~ others explanation will be complicated, so is enough for introduce..XD

She will be my 2nd and also last baby perhaps, not gonna change anymore i think~ im not gonna be a pro also..satisfy ady^^
Anyway, gonna take care her well and giving a new life to her~
Also, THX to my BELOVED MOMMY ♥ for buying her for me~ is a great birthday + xmas present:D

Is not that easy~

Things, never will be easy..no matter what we talking about
Easy, is not that easy as the word says
Saying easy is always easier thn doing easy~
Thats the life..

Remain silence is because dont want to lie..
It doesnt mean that dont want to tell, but dont know how to said,
Instead of simply say, remain silence is always better,
Cause the person are someone i dont want to lie.

Wanted to share, but not sure to share,
One step wrong, may end up fail,
Is not easy afterall...

幸福♥其实很简单

幸福，其实很简单，不用太多，适量就好。
能够认识一群志同道合的朋友，能够偶尔相聚在一块，其实已经很幸福了~
从一开始的陌生人，因为缘分，所以相识，形而变成朋友~
有福同享，有难同当；开心一起笑，伤心一起哭。
所谓出外靠朋友，你们，就是我在外面另一个的家人，
因为你们，生活更加精彩。

不同的步调，相同的频率；不同的思维，相同的概念；
那就是形成我们在一起的因素~
幸福♥其实真的很简单，
只要懂得知足，幸福，就在你眼前~♥

海浪，平静...

海平面终于平静了，太阳也出来了~
不再挂风挂浪，也不再乌云密布了，
少了雷电交加，少了波涛汹涌，心里总算没那么闷了。
虽然这一刻不知能维持多久，但至少这一刻，就如照片般，
心，是温暖，平静的。=)




虽然，偶尔，会出现几个小漩涡，但都情有可原吧~
毕竟，海水是流动的，总不能时时刻刻都风平浪静吧。
漩涡，当把一切都卷到底时，自然会停止，无须担心，
当漩涡把一切都带走后，海面也将恢复原本的景象。




把心里的一切，连同祝福与问好都塞进瓶子里。
把它丢进大海，让它随风而飘，随浪而去~
让有一天当有人捡到时，能接受它所有的恩赐，能了解它的心声~
他，又会几时出现呢？

Angel ? or Demon ?

There's always an angel and a demon in our heart. The only difference is, who is stronger.

Angel mostly control the action and outcome towards public, while Demon is the evil part in your mind that try to twist what Angel is doing.

Is it mean that when Angel stronger that Demon make u a good guy ? or is it Demon stronger than angel make u a evil person ? Is not likely true after all.

Always being a good person infront of public, it somehow causes stressful to Angel and may turn it into fallen angel...
Fallen Angel is a creature with half angel wing and half demon wing, which is between good and evil...

Good or Bad, is never a well good definition to describe, only the one itself can understand it.

Angel and Demon is always fighting each other, though may be Angel can win all the time, but the resentment that accumualte may somehow berserk one day. The only thing can stop it is the mind of itself, think wisely when a decision is made.

Decision are always made by Angel, but Demon will start to fight back when it made.

Am I doing the right things?
Am I an Angel ? or Demon ?..or is already a Fallen Angel now ? who know ?
An answer that even myself cant say, how bout others ?

珍惜~所以爱惜~

珍惜一样东西，就是要学会爱惜它，
爱惜并不是拥有，而是关怀，爱护。

放手，不是不珍惜，而是更爱惜，
因为这样它才能更加发挥它的才能。

珍惜它，就要坦诚面对它，
逃避，不是潇洒，而是放弃
放弃珍惜它的机会
只有坦诚，才能让它知道，你是真的爱惜它。



四叶草的花语是幸福。
他的四片叶子包含了人生梦寐以求的四样东西：名誉，财富，爱情及健康。

四叶草是一棵稀有的植物，
如果说，
我找到一颗四叶草，我会把它送给你，要你永远像它一样幸运。
希望你能像我珍惜你般，珍惜它~



*感谢你的出现*
*感谢你的坦诚*
*感谢你的笑容*
*感谢你给予的回忆*
*感谢上帝赐予你的出现，让你的坦诚与笑容，给予我最美好的回忆*

因为珍惜，所以爱惜~
只要你是幸福的，这棵四叶草，我将送于你手上~

总会~结束

所有问题，不管是大或小，总有解决的方法~
方法，不一定是要完美的结局，只要自己认为问题能解决，自然，已经是完美了~
问题，之所以是问题，因为就是要你面对，要你思考，要你解决...

问题，就像一块璞玉， 要经过思考，解决来面对它，把它琢成一颗宝石~
但有时，问题解决的时候，偶尔，会有些遗憾，有些伤感，甚至，会因而失去一些东西~
解决过程中，难免，必须把不美的一面磨平，这些因磨平而掉落的粉碎就是遗憾和失去的事物...

事情总没十全十美，有得必有失，为了把问题解决，难免必须放弃一些原则，这些问题带走的事物，带来的遗憾，总有一天，会结束~
就像磨出的粉碎，可被回收，做成其他的副产品~ 遗憾会是一种经验，失去过将会更珍惜
这些都是必须面对的问题

就算有部分会随风而去，它也终究会有着落的时候
问题总会结束，但，问题不会停止...
不管用再多的时间，我也会把这快璞玉打造成最亮丽的宝石。

时间飞逝而过~

第三学期，也过了一半了，意味着第一年也即将结束了...2010也快完结了...只能说，时间怎么那末快啊~~~~~我快变成大二生了！！！ LOL~ 不能接受XD~ 想起第一天的迎新会，记忆还忧新呢，感觉还是只过了不久，就像昨天发生的事一样~ 还是说，是因为今年没啥新鲜事，所以才记得很清楚？！不晓得~
从一开始加入这所大学开始，就不带什么期望，因为是逼不得已才做的选择~不出所料，到现今，依然，对他没好感~ 不像中学与学院，会很自豪的怂恿学弟妹们加入，这次，我极力怂恿他们加入更好的大学><
每天漫无目的的到学校，等待的只有放饭及放学~人生，有酱悲吗？跟想象中的大学生活，没一块儿像==
曾经几度想要放弃，想要离开~ 但令这念头消失的唯一原因就是在今年认识到另一班的伙伴~因为他们，令到这枯燥的生活增加那么一点色彩~ 也不用特别形容或解释，做兄弟的，有今生无来世，是用心交流，不是靠一张口~
今年有过甜酸苦辣的过程，每一幕都历历在望，发生的变化也意想不到~ 事实总归事实，已决定的事已成定局，没必要再提起，有些事知道就好，没必要问将清楚~ 只能说，任何结果都不曾后悔过，天蝎座的，在意的是过程，不是结果~ 而在这个过程里，已是这年来最美好的回忆~ 至于结果嘛...各人造业各人担吧X)...能说的是，依然，会默默的观察~
2010/11 了，多一个月，又是迈向人生的另一段路了~ 但愿，明天会更好。

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Time has come and time has pass...
Day of happy will end, day of sadness will finish...
There's never an ever in life, it just depends on how u face it...

Memory is an image, image is a picture, picture is what u seen and what u draw in it..however it doesnt mean that what u draw will be true..when a wrong picture has drawn, an incorrect image will formed, a memory that should not exist will be stored in your mind..
An individual thought can never represent as someone's thought, a wishful thinking(一厢情愿) will just ruin out your life..
Once a memory has born, theres no backward exist to undo it..the only way is to either let it exist in your life or let it vanish through the flow of time..no matter how it been, it will still be a part in ur mind, somewhere deep inside which u may never found...

Happiness, sadness or anger, you still have to go through in day..why not feel proud that u have such feelings?
Glad to be happy as there is memory that someone give u that being with them, it make u feel joyful..
Glad to be sad as there is memory that someone left for u that hurt u so much which make u realise that someone is really important in ur life..
Glad to be anger as there is memory that someone show u that they are someone that u care alot..
Thx to God that u got these feelings..because of them..u found out alot of people that care u so much, people that u concern alot, someone that u love it so much...

Every chances u got is a gift from God, is a fortune u earn in last life..take it seriously and use it wisely..whn u lose one, there will be no second chances..
Chances is on your hand, winner or losser, is your choice..no people can take it aways from u unless you yourself let it go...

Somehow..i hope that the chance in my hand is still valid..im still waiting the time..and you..

看开就好~

Well..though the topic is in chinese, but writing in english will be better..haha..my chinese become broke since leaving high school~~ i mean in writing =P

Hmm..start with what will be better?? anyway la..just talkk..

Well..semester 2 in my 1st year in Help is going to end soon in 2 more weeks..final exam is coming!!! OMG!!..quite scared..as the subject is HARD!!! ==..haiz~ just hav to study lo..what can do other thn that?!..but definately not now lo~ no mood!! I think i will start few days more..but guarantee not last minute, im not the one that study whole midnight like those night ghost==

Talk bout the life of uni, well, everything seems become used to it ady~ environment, friends etc. though i still always complain bout this bout that..XD

Hmm..theres alot of thing happen this year~ i quite enjoy in it as well..^^..meeting my new uni buddies!..though theres something which doesnt work well..hav a bit regret bout that..but what i can do i already did..just..may be is not the right time, right place, right people..(天时地利人和)...like what i said..see open thn good =)

Life like that wont last long right? everyone gonna seperate in different major soon..cant gather as usual already..~><~..haiz~ will feel sad~ but wont last long ofcoz..everone will growth..friends will never be along for life..learn to enjoy learn to hav fun with them is the only way to let their face forever remember in our brain..

Life is tough, life is hard, yet we still hav to process it...learn to adapt learn to forgive is the only way to survive..everything see widely will make our life better=)

天资不足，就得更努力！

不懂是不是自己的头脑变差了还是原本就将差？！...最近读书的能力真的是。。kanasai!!!...一点点东西都要很久才能明白跟记得==

真的不明白，当年的第一名跟第二名我是怎样拿来的？？侥幸？？班上水准差？？==

不管啦，酱旧了的历史也不想回想了...我只是知道现在的我很烂！！

别人看两眼就记得了，我看一整天才懂一点点T.T

最近真的是~~Haiz~~心情烂透，差一点还没到谷底罢了==考试又来了，没变，还是要比别人早读，早看...虽然到头来成绩还是比那些考试前一天才读的来得差...

没变，天资不足，就得更努力！

Suffering~

Haiz~ im stress nowaday..not only in studies..but anything!!!...shit~ now only realise that this sem only got 3 months, and im still acting like an idiot..wtf?!

God~ i cant ply ply ady...this is damn important to me...must study well...i must go to AUS next year..i dont wanna stay in HELP anymore!!!...must do well in these months..><

Haiz~ i just feel of want to cry underneath my pillow T.T~ shit...im suffer from it...it make me use all of my brain spaces to think...not even have a space for me to think write what for my SMS..T.T

Sucks~ i just dont like to smile recently...y everyone must say im abnormal whn i dont smile?!..i just tired of it...who the hell hav the mood to smile whn thy are suffer in studies?? FXXK OFF la...

I didn change at all!!! Is just u that dont know me well only...my attitute is always like this..

不开心~理由？没有...

LOL...quite funny actually...my look seems joy and high~..but thrs something tell me that im not happy..and i dont know why~ i try many way to get rid of it..exercise, drama, comic, music, guitar, movie~~yet..it works temporaly..later on it will back to same mood==

FXXK!!!...feel like wanna talk...but i not even know start from where...GESSUS~~...I HATE THESE FEELING~~

Haiz~ xianz...now just keep hearing on loud volume music n simply ply my guitar to paralyze it~~aikz~ cincai la...let it cool down 1st...these weekend must study bout Acc n Mkt ady..not really understand n hear during the class...==

不开心，可以很简单，可以没有理由，可以很复杂．．．其实追根究底，它只不过是有心而生的一种感觉，只要找到源头，自然会痊愈．．．你呢？不开心，会怎样解决？！

Finally!!! School Started!!! New Sem!!!

Yoo~~ finally 5 weeks pass~~is So FaSt wei!!!...2nd sem is come ady..XD

And today meet friends that didn saw in a month..><..haha..some i nearly forget the name..:-P..not purposely k~><

Oh~ and yea~ i Pass All my subject..XD..though the result is not good..T.T..i gonna try harder for this new sem^^

Btw..just wanna mention something~~ my little tiger friend, LEO~~XD..nice wan..hope he get his drinks soon~~GOD BLESS HIM~~hehe

Glad to saw my cutie friends again..XD..new sem!!! Roar!!!..XD

Last week of Hol!day~~

Well~ finally~ 5 weeks of sem break is almost end...though is a long break..but now..i feel that..Wao~ wanna end liao?!..i not even start to Play?!..XD..just kidding though..:-P

Whatever la..just hav to face the truth of the result soon..just hav to start over and harder for those subject that fails..(hope that it wont too muchT.T)..is time for wake up earlly everday days ady..~><~

Hows my Holiday?!..Haha..1 words to describe only~~ WASTED!!!...like a mandarin describition 虚度光阴==...Ya, i know is I that dont use properly..so what?!..is sure that hav ppl that do the same things like me..==

The only thing that i feel relief is that..my msg hav that Effect ?!..seems my language level still not that bad as i thought..XD..feel quite suprise for the reply..And i did Enjoy abit..Hehe~

Agr~~ LAST WEEK..YA~~I gonna use all my MBO card credit...prepare to Sapu all Movie..WAKAKAKA!!!

提升自己，接受挑战~

突然觉得，是时候把自己提升了，是时候改变一下，改变自己的态度，自己的思维，自己对人处事的态度...是时候让自己变得更成熟一些~

当一个人面对比自己强悍，比自己能干的人...往往都会投以羡慕的眼光...
可能是大男人主义作祟，或者是天蝎座‘不输得’的个性，面对着比自己更强悍的人，就有一种想要超越的意念，尤其当对方是异性或者你喜爱的人，就更会有“一定要比你更厉害” 的想法...

虽然现在才开始起步未免有点晚，但至少现在开始能一点一点的把距离拉近...总有一天会追得上你的~

距离并不是你我之间的差距，而是我要追上你的时间~

我相信只要放大脚步，我总有站到你身旁的机会~

Finally..ended exam..ended 1st sem...

LOL..finally..finished...normally i should say HOORAY~~for this..yet..is not the suitable words for the mood now..Ya..is true that finish exam make u feel no more stress..but what if u know u will fail some of the subject and gonna retake next sem??..i tell u~~ u wont have the mxxther Fxxker mind to celebrate==..all my mind is..HOLY CRAPS..how i suppose to tell me parents..T.T
First sem ended..lol..didn hav any feeling for that..sucks..my ptptn stuff have n settle somemore..my six sence tell me i gonna ruin it again..MCB..IM TOTALLY ON FIRE NOW!!!

Haiz~seriously..i still cant or prepared to change my mode to holiday yet..i just feel so useless to my own..cant done eveything well..~><~..or may be i just not the type of study boy..so what to do in future??..2 choice..beggar..or just go suicide to wait for ur next life role...==..(ofcoz im kidding==)

And...i feel sorry for being unconcern to my dear recently..i admit that im stress for exam and cause me no mood..the other reason is that i found that i has lost my confidence on continue on this part..is feel like distance damn far..a big gap waiting for me to across..yet, i dont hav enough courage n confidence to do it...T.T

LOL..haiz..T.T..i just hav to slp more now..this week my driving condition damn worst..2 times slightly kena bang..1 time really BANG ppl car..my 1st time car accident..T.T..what a shame~><~ (and i didn tell u, just becoz i dont want u to be worried)

HOLIDAY for 5 weeks now..hope i can find back myself in this month..i just wonder y we cant winter sleep like bear har??..if can..i no need think so much and can sleep till next sem only..><
LOL..im totally DOWN now..
BYE my friends..see u guys next sem if possible...

1st time ever feel fear for exam!!!

LOL...final exam is coming next week...yet i dont have complete mood to study..==..
Account, Economy, Management, IT...these 4 subjects..other thn Acc, i hav no confidence at all to pass other 3..==

Well..theres been a long time since i will fear for the exam...i has lost this feelings since form 1 or form 2...i guess anyone that come out from chinese independent high school will feel that too..
By training well by the hell system of having exam everytimes...u will feel insentive for exam anymore...just act it as a normal exercise==...

Not untill this year..WTF..what system is this har??..u hav to pass ur final exam only can pass ur subject..OMG..which mean even ur average mark pass, if final fail..consider as FAIL...
No one can ever hav 100% guarantee to pass a exam k?!..theres always hav accident wait infront of u==...
Shit~~this time no more think of cover lower result exam by higher result exam...coz ONCE final fail..U FAIL..hav to take 4 more month and 1.6k to resit again..GG.com

Laiye~~the feelings of fear...long time didn see u ady==...
Haiz~~what to do?!..just hav to keep on fighting..with the experience all the years..i'll TRY MY BEST to overcome u..(yet i cant say 'i swear', coz i really no confidence for that== )

对人处事最重要坦诚相见~~

今天突然领悟了一个道理，对于一个人的感觉，必须勇敢说出来，不带任何隐瞒，坦诚地告诉对方...自自而然，对方也会把自己的想法告诉你...人与人之间，不管什么关系也好，如果心中有顾虑，关系在怎样好都会有一层膜隔着彼此；只有坦诚相对的人才能毫无顾忌的相处在一起。不管以后的关系会如何，我还是一样会选择把自己心想的一切坦诚地告诉你*

What a boring , meaningless and annoying month~~

LOL..long time didn update this blog ady..well..saying the true, i hav been lazy and out of inspiration recently..cant think of anything to write==

Haiz..blink of an eye, March gonna end it soon also..and April is the month of final exam..everything is just too fast for me to digest..Uni life~~i hav been in HELP for 3 months ady?!..what the hell~~ the memory of orientation is just like happen yesterday..and now..it tell me that 1st sem has ady pass 3/4..><

LOL..i hav to say the true that..im not happy for being in my uni life..is just so bored..like doing ntg everyday..or may be it just because im studying in HELP?!..the only thing that i feel relief is that i know a bunch of new fellow..LOL..CHINESE gang again..i just miss my college pal alot..college is just my enjoyable-est study life in my entire school life..

Haiz..and i hav to admit that im just too stress recently for the very meaningless MGT presentation..ofcoz im not stress for present..i hav been train well since last year..but still..dont know stress for what==..and this stupid stress hav causes my hormone or increption or what ever going crazy in my body..i cant feel hunger or full of my stomach==..can u imagine hows the feel??..today seems better..i can feel it..but the feeling only appear like after 1 hour i finish my meal..==..
LOL..i know this is some kind of disease, kinda like what i learn in bio..haha..actually im quite happy in other way, coz i can experience what the text book say about..XD..and it just hook back my memory during bio class..~><~..i just miss them so much..cell fission, genetic code...T.T

LOL..im just tired of always pretend smiling, act joyfull or pretend nothing to whatever it does..is kind like a..pumping a balloon..i felt that i gonna burst one day in the future..YA!!..im serious..not kidding==

Recently theres just too much thing flowing in my mind making me cant breath..assignment~exam~my future life~
Like what my friend- Eugeen has ask me somedays b4,"Are u feeling crush on that girl?!"..well..seriously, the answer i tell U is true..that i really "DONT KNOW"..i hav been asking this question to myself many times also, i just dont know yet..my stupid brain has not giv the order yet==..
Fine~..im lazy of thinking also..just dont care..i hav made my mind of frozen it..LOL..dont care bout this pointless things ady..what my plan for this year is just fast fast ended and go to Aus next year..im really tiring of thinking these kind of stuff ady..


What a cute ornament..i just like it so much..whenever i feel stress or anything..whn i look to it, is just like it can reduce my stress..well~~or may be is some one that gift me?!..who know??..i just appreciate that i receive such nice gift..

Hehe..feeling quite good when u type out all of ur mind..at least is better thn keep all inside..last word for my self:" MUST STUDY HARD ADY"..if not, how can i chg to Taylors or UQ next year??..加油!!!

虎年到了~~

年30晚，今天是除夕夜，一如往常，亲戚到我家吃团圆饭^^

新年嘛，对于每个人都是一个好日子，有红包XD..不过随着岁月增长，这股热诚好像渐渐减少了，不再那么期待今天的到来...难道~~老了？？==

不管怎样啦，新年都必须喜气洋洋，这样才意味着今年能过得更加精彩啊~~我会好好的享受这一个礼拜的假期的，因为我可能没办法参加来年的兔年与龙年了，可能出国了吧><

哈哈，华人新年是每个华人最重要的日子，这个传统必须好好的传承下去~~当然尤其是派红包的习俗XD..

好呗~~答应自己，过完这个华人新年就必须收起心情，好好的在课业下一番功夫，过完年还有一大堆报告必须交上去啊T.T...

今年给与自己的目标：考取至少符合进UQ的资格，把英文至少进步的比较好，暂时就酱多吧..已经不简单了==，若有余力的话，希望做一些之前没尝试过的事情，不过还是，看缘分吧=]

坏车记==

烂丑的一天，今天既然让我体验了人生中的第一次----车冒烟..><..他X的..有吓倒我..今天早上就发觉有一点了的，但检查了水箱，还有水嘛..不是没理他咯~~

谁知~~

放学回家飞HIGHWAY的时候~~

原本是没注意到的~~

当去到junction~~

才注意到水位上升快到红线@@~~

Wakao~zhazhalam关冷气开窗咯，希望降低水用量~~

在一会儿过后...既然传来烧焦味~~

哦买嘎~~快快停在一边罢了啦，我怕着火==

开了车头，一团烟冒出来，味道焦到><..顶不顺..

幸好老爸之前就教了我一点引擎的事情，检查一下...水管爆掉了..==

最后...只好叫人来暂时修着先...这架老爷车是时候检查了的~~

就是说~~

这段日子没车用了T.T

Up comming CNY~

1 week more is the big festival once a year..CHINESE NEW YEAR wei~~..how can u forget it if u are a chinese==
But although it is a big festival..it seems some of my friends will unable to participate it..why?..coz thy going to aus for studying soon..one of my friend will go to aus next mon, one will go on 14 feb(this one abit lucky, coz night flight, can take angpau in morning 1st only go..><)..haiz~..so cham to them..1st year in life celebrate CNY alone...
Well..for me..actually..feeling half happy n half sad..Happy is coz hav angpau la..everything think about that..Sad is..im older again==..T.T..really feel timeflies as u see ur siblings started to grow bigger..mean that u are older ady..~><~..haiz~ no more teenagers now..T.T
Dont know is older or what..as u grow bigger, it start to think more about future..and as usual..im fully blank about my future yet..but what to do..==..just concentrate on study now 1st la..who care about things that happen the next year..u not even know what will come from tomorrow day..
From now on..dont do anything, just wait for cny to come n enjoy it 1st..XD..we discuss anythings else after 15day of CNY^^

Freaky boring month gonna past soon~~

LOL..Jan of 2010 finally gonna past soon~..cant believe that it already start school for 4 weeks..it just like a week for me==..
Why?..cause everyday doing the same things..make me feel like i just keep turning around in the same places==..
Well..my uni life in HELP..what to say..nothing special actually..lecture class is damn bored..facilities is damn noob..not much to appreciate only..==..but theres one thing that i appreciate it is i know alot of new friends in HELP..although many is chonghwa b4, but i just know them now..><..some is come from TCSH too..so is easy to make friends with them..but all of them is chinese kia..==..cham~~the only friend i speak in english is Jarren n Lishan only..from the same college..and Victor that know this year..
I just list out some others chinese kia name..kaebin, jingren, keennian, weipang, jensen, kaikiat..and some others that cant remember their name yet..but hav 2 important ppl must introduce..my damn cute jie~ CELESTE..XD..and lenglui JOSEPHINE..XD
Since Jan gonna end soon..and up comming is a week of exam and welcoming CNY..just do my best only la..=]
Hope i will get along the life in HELP in the following days la..XD
Today is a enjoyable day..^^..having 2nd time of EL tutorial..><

烛光晚餐

下面这篇微型小说是我转载的。
标题是自取的。 一个很有意思的故事。
能够的话，看完它啊! >.< ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
在一个烛光晚餐。一张桌子两边，坐了男人和女人。
“我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡地说着。
“我有老婆。”男人摸着自己手上的戒指。
“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我吗？”
男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。
24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。
真是不错的女孩啊，可惜。
“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。
“我爱我妻子。”男人坚定地回答。
“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。
否则，公司的晚宴，怎么从来不见你带她来……”女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。
一片寂静……“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。
“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多......反正，和我之前见过的人不 同，你很特别。"
“你知道三年前的我什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。
“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”
“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。
“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，还因为去夜总会找小姐，被警察抓过。”
“那怎么……” 女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么让男人转变的。
“因为她？”
“嗯。”
“她那个人，好像总能看到事情的内在，教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失，别太在乎眼前的事，尽量待人和善。
那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。
那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我，偏偏最听她的话。
按照她说的，接受现实，我知道自己没用，就努力工作。
那年年底，工作上 稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”
男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。
“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具也少得可怜。
知道吗？结婚一年后，我才给她买了第一枚钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。
当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的。”
“那阵子，因为烟酒弄得自己身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味道，也只有她做得出。”
男人沉醉于回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停地讲述着往事。
而女人，也丝毫没有打断的意思，静静地听着。
等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。
“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人抱歉地笑了笑。
“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会，做对不起她的事。”
“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服了！”女人无奈地摇了摇头。
“不过我到了她的年纪，会更棒的。”
“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？”
“很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。
“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。
“回去吧，别让她等急了。”男人会心地笑了笑，转身要走。
“她漂亮嘛？”
“……嗯，很美。”男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛，发呆。
男人回到家，推开门，径直走进卧室，打开了台灯。
沿着床边，他坐了下来。
“老婆，已经第四个了。干嘛让我变得这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。
搞不好，我会变心呀。
干嘛把我变得这么好，自己却先走了？我，我一个人，好孤单呀……”
男人哽咽地说着，终于泣不成声。
眼泪，一滴滴从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。
昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里弥漫着的是已逝女子淡淡的温柔。

Today going back my damn cool college..^^

Finally, 2010 SAM has finally started, which mean the 2009 SAM has over, is time for us to sold our books to our junior..XD..
After finish class in uni, we head back our college to sell our books..although didn go back for a month, but still, i feel happy whn reach TCSH..we go to the 2nd floor to see if find any ppl..and we meet our pal, chow,pak chung, hui ling.....is damn excited whn saw them..^^..
During the selling time, we saw some chonghwa junior meimei..XD..we hav sold some books to them which is schoolmates price..^^
When seeing all the junior walking around..i just feel that we are old ady==
Before we left college, i hav ply pool n foos with eugeen..haha..1st time playing foos actually..><
No matter how long it past, i will always remember our college life in TCSH, it is our honour to be the 1st batch student in TCSH..i like just like u so much..^^
But still i just feel sad of selling of my super ultra pro calculator..><~

1st day in HELP university college

Well...finally...Jan6..the orientation day for HELP..which mean..no more holiday..T.T..earlly morning need wake up again..
The orientation start at 9..but i reach at 8am==..damn bored..but i met quite a few friends in there, is quite cool..XD..if compare to last year college orientation, this is much better, at least there are more ppl that i know..and more CHINESE..><
Our senior is nice to us too, thy are nice person..XD..
Well..overall..my opinion to HELP still ok la..what i cant adapt is..SO HOT..air-cond is not strong..SO TIRED WALKING..no escalator..not much facilities~~~..the sweat i giv out today is more thn a year in TAYLOR==..
And about my team today..well..many come from chong hwa or TCSH too..haha..cool..XD
The activity we done is quite fun la...but im tired of walking here walking there..sweat like hell lo~
Since there are 2 more day for orientation..i just left it later to talk about details la..im very exhaust by now..
AND 1 more things..i lost my way whn going home from HELP..nearly bang ppl car coz of losting way..damn scary..T.T..lucky lastly let me see a sign board of J.Kuching-> J.Ipoh->AMPANG..~><~..b4 seeing those sign board, whn i realise i lost..i just keep drive to the way that i saw klcc..XD..lucky~~